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siti.khadijah.md.bashir

Being Me is the greatest challenge
to keep on moving when everything messed up
to keep on going when my vision turns upside down
to keep calm when my anger explodes
to keep smiling when all I have is sadness
to enjoy the real happiness that came only for a while

but only this way
these lessons had taught Me how to live
these challenges that made me stronger inside out
these stories that gave me strength to my weaknesses for each fate that you wrote for my Life
is nothing better but THE BEST!

“When you leave, remember to look back to see those you’re leaving behind. You never know, but they might be feeling miserable."


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Tuesday, April 28, 2009 @ 2:10 AM
terjemahkanlah sendiri.




Monday, April 27, 2009 @ 9:38 PM
out of the friends I’ve made there, you’re the one that stuck on. =)

nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
Ape uat
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
dgr lagu abg imran
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
Sri0us ke memain
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
seriouss lahh
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
Sejak bile kau minat imran ajmain ?
tak penah tau pun
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
sejak de bwat lagu selamat ulang tahun sayang
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
lagu baru ehk
sedap ke
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
sedap
nnt bdae kau aku bg kau k.tu pon law aku ingt bdae kau.hek.
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
kirekan lagu tu kau teringatkan sape? dektu ke dekni?
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
dua2 tk
kau dgr eh lirik de.aku type kat cni.sedey woo.
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
panjang la sae kau nak type
Kan kau trus letak pat bl0g kau lagy sng
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
"selamat ulang tahun sayang."
k dh ni je lirik de yg aku mampu type
wahahaha
lucu tk aku ? lucu tk?
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
agak nak termelayang tr0mpah aku ni
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
hahahah
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
kau tau t0ari pat mejid kan ad org imam au , ad ke pat0t de bace surah al-baqara
Subuh plak tu
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
mengigil je lh ni kn lutut kau?
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
kau nak tau tak de bace ayat satu sampai mane ?!
Gigil ah
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
smpi ayat 286?
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
tak
De bace 'alif laaaaam miiiiim' aje , den de ruku
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
KAU NI NK IKUT2 AKU KEPE??
nazo_namlun@hotmail.com says:
Lucu tak?
Lucu tak?
%sitikhadijah% Words so sharp they can scar says:
agak nk melayang aku pny kaki pon ada.



Friday, April 24, 2009 @ 1:50 AM
Don't you have anything better to do siti khadijah?

001. Real name?: sitikhadijah md bashir.

002. Nickname?: ijah, djah, RahRah, blablabla.

003. Are you married?: This must be a trick question.

004. Horoscope sign?: Sagittarius.

005. Male or female?: Fe-male.

006. Elementary?: alsagoff arabic sch.

007. Middle?: alsagoff juga.

008. Highschool?: Waktanjong islamic sch.

010. Hair color?: black. I'm a nerd! okay,no link.

011. Long or short?: botak tengah can?

015. Are you health freak?: This question must be a joke.

016. Height?: skip. soalan sensitif.

017. Do you have a crush on someone?: Sad to say, NO.Wah, lagi sad i tell you.

018. Do you like yourself?: Maybe, to a certain extent. But i don't adopt self-obsession.

019. Piercings?: 1 on each ear.

020. Tattoos?: Only if i'm brave enough to undergo laser surgery to remove the tattoos.

021. Righty or lefty?: Righty.

FIRSTS:

022. First surgery?: If you consider non-shaky tooth cos my gums were swollen as a surgery, then okay. The dentist had to inject my gums lh to make it numb. i was only in lower primary that time tao. I was so brave lhh!

023. First piercing?:Maybe 5 or 6 years of age.

024. First best friend?: anak adam! wahhhhhhhhhh! *tarek rambut mel*

025. First award received in?: i can't say specifically cos i received many awards in primary school. eksyen nye aku.

026. First sport you joined?: Netball. bile jangan ditanye.

027. First pet?: Never had any.and never will.

028. First vacation?: umrah with nenek.

029. First concert?: concert iklhas, 2005.

030. First crush in?: Primary 4. Just thinking about those times make me feel silly and kental.

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating?: honeystar.

050. Drinking?: Milo.

052. I'm about to?: brush my teeth and off to sleep.

.055. Waiting for?: This quiz to end so that i can rush off to the toilet.

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids?: ye saye.

059. Want to get married?: Copy and paste previous answer here.

060. Careers in mind?: singer juga! nk juga!

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX?:

068. Lips or eyes?: For me, it will be the eyes.

069. Hugs or kisses?: Kicks and punches can?

070. Shorter or taller?: Taller than me please.

072. Romantic or spontaneous?: romantic please.

073. Nice stomach or nice arms?: Nice EVERYTHING.

074. Sensitive or loud?: A healthy mix of both.

077. Trouble maker or hesitant?: Trouble maker of course. trouble is a friend. and i love trouble.

HAVE YOU EVER:

078. Kissed a stranger?: I'm not that desperate.

079. Drank bubbles?: Why would i want to do that for.

080. Lost glasses/contacts?: Nope. pakai pon tdk.

081. Ran away from home?: nop.

084. Broken someone's heart?: Maybe yes, maybe no

085. Been arrested?: erk. no.

086. Turned someone down?: Who hasn't?

087. Cried when someone died?: when someone dies, i suppose it should be a sad occasion right?So yes, i did cry when my uncle died.

088. Liked a friend?: If you don't like your friends, how to be friends then?

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself?: yes.

090. Miracles?: Yes,but they rarely happen to me. How unfortunate.

091. Love at first sight?: More like LUST at first sight.

092. Heaven?: Yes, i do.

093. Santa clause?: mel je percaye. huhu. kk.

094. Sex on first date?: *bentang sejadah*

096. Angles?: yes

097. Ghost?: I just do. I don't need experience to convince myself that ghosts exist.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

098. Is there one person you want to be with right now?: ABISHIEK. I want to shake hands with him. wahahaha. tk move on lg rupenye khadijah.

099. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?: I have many friends! bwahahaha. Err, okay. I'm not answering the question.

100. Do you believe in God?: yes i do

101. Will you post this as "101Truths"?: What if i say no?



Thursday, April 23, 2009 @ 3:07 AM
i wonder if feeling fades?

Sometimes it seems that the people i've knew just changed and their path crosses mine just for awhile only. Why can't it last? We used to be able to talk about everything,but now it's impossible to even start a decent conversation with you. why?



@ 12:45 AM
stay with me, will you?

kepala misteri siapakah ini?

ah gadis ini, ramiza yang dicintai.

ouch! ayuu u.

ahahah! hilanggg ayu! korg, aku tk tawu knp aku nk post gmbr ni.
maafkan aku.


"dan saudara main drum!"
ahahah!!aku suke aku suke.

seronokk kn kalau selalu mcm ni.

"Antara ribuan mata menikam
Takkan kubiarkan kau tenggelam"

ahaha! ni yg aku nk ye utt.

bintang-bintang.

sukenyee dia kalau ada camera!


Have been going out alot lately. Probly i take it as a time to ease myself and reflects on things. Friends have been very supportive to me. Meeting me out, walking with me to places and talking sense into me. sayang korang lh!




Tuesday, April 21, 2009 @ 1:58 AM
selamat tinggal, selamat jalan.

Yang tulus ikhlas ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas,
walau hanya dengan dakapan diangin lalu.
Yang selalu memberi ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima,
cukup dengan salam dari manis doa.

jangan lupa terbang pulang ya. =))

-imran ajmain, selamat ulang tahun sayang.



Monday, April 20, 2009 @ 11:28 PM
cuba bayangkan perasaan seorang ibu.

saat kau baru lahir, ku tatap wajahmu sayang.

walaupun kau merengek, ku sabar melayani karenahmu sayang.

ku gendong dirimu,ke belaimu dengan penuh kasih sayang.

ku tetap tabah selagi suamiku (merujuk kpada lelaki mat saleh) berada disisiku.
dan kini kau sudah mencecah setahun. berkat kesabaran kami suami isteri,kau sudah pandai bertatih.
syabas sayang.

aha!! harap maklum ini adalah drama singkat sebagai hiburan diri sndr. bye syg.





Saturday, April 18, 2009 @ 8:40 PM
blow wind blow.

SUBHANALLAH. i just realised something. My tutee calls me "Tuition"!! like just now, she was throwing a paper down the stairs and she said


"Tuition, tuition! Catch the paper!"


i was speechless for a few moments but recovered soon enough. but by then the paper had already landed on the floor. aha! even being called makcik is better than being called tuition! at least the word "makcik" refers to something human where as "tuition" refers to something non-human! *geleng2 kepala*


btw i borrowed 3 books yesterday and i feel accomplished. buku Faisal tehrani u! ok i'm off to read them now. so ghairah! ni klw Faisal tehrani atau Ramlee awang murshid berhenti mengarang maka otakku pon akan berhenti berfungsi.



Thursday, April 16, 2009 @ 11:54 PM
you can always choose to be hurt or not. but this time, i can't

You have crossed the line
My patience won’t last that long
and because i have my limits, dear.


maybe they have forgotten that i am still a girl who feels things deeply - who knows the feeling of hurt although she might appear rough and tough.



@ 1:43 PM
handwriting, so terrible that it's rated PG.


"EHH!! ASTAGFIRULLAH. KENAPA TULISAN AWK MCM BATIK KOYAK NI?"

"tulisan saya kan ustazah, PG. bdk2 tk bagus tengok tulisan saya"

PG?! *urut dada tahan marah dan tahan ketawa*




Tuesday, April 14, 2009 @ 12:23 AM
my boy.





"hussaini gemuk ke kurus?"
"rus!"
"kak ijah pulak?"
"MOK!"

grrr!




Monday, April 13, 2009 @ 1:19 AM
because i dont want to know anymore.

There are just certain things in life
that are better off unknown,
things you wish you never asked,
never saw,
never heard
or never even felt.

a huge request for you, STAY AWAY FROM ME!



Sunday, April 12, 2009 @ 1:16 AM
Hussaini dan lappyboyKU










kesukaan eh adik kakak bile jumpa camera.



@ 12:13 AM
and i feel old.

I wish I’m still the old me, sitting on the sofa laughing at anything and everything. Laughing and choking and semburing in public in the company of friends. The old khadijah bashir who didn’t have to think twice about every single action of hers, who wasnt so cautious of herself and of others. The one who wasn’t busy trying to be sensitive to everyone around her so no one gets hurt.

But a wish,
is just a wish.
THIS, is reality



Friday, April 10, 2009 @ 1:25 AM
impossible is temporary. impossible is nothing

You will overcome everything cos you're still that same person i once knew. I hope everything is going on well for you despite the fact that we merely are strangers now. If only words are easy to come by, wouldn't it be better?I have sooo much to say but i rather remain silent. It's better this way right?You would have agreed. That explain why we aren't talking.



Wednesday, April 8, 2009 @ 11:58 PM
try me!

You know how some people have the tendency to just react violently when they're put under pressure? like, not physical violence, but more of, being all aggressive and well, negative. i'm one of those people. i've been so mean lately and i know its scary. so you better dont mess with me!



@ 11:28 PM
my lappy boy.





Beginilah hasilnya jika diberikan waktu break yang sangat panjang.
sekian, terima kasih kerana menontot.



Sunday, April 5, 2009 @ 10:45 PM
my saturdays are blessings in disguise

There're so many good things currently I would love to share and the not-so-good things that U need to learn from that I would like to share as well. But I'm quite lazy and everytime I want to type something, I run out of words to say about what I want to say. Halamak! I can't seem to express how awesome the past few days have been.
oh ya, nur 'athifah andai kau dh smpi hotel syria ke dubai ke baghdad ke cpt2 online. ada bbrapa pkara nk ku update padamu ye sayang. moga urusan dekat sana berjalan lancar. cpt2 pulang2. ku menanti kepulanganmu.


Okay, this one was so precious; they did not mind getting off their bus and taking another bus back just to help me with the freaking heavy gates.

gate yang maha azab nk tutup. mangga dia punye berat sama berat dengan berat badan ikan paus. subhanAllah, bzikir je mulut tutup pintu ni. nasib saya ada anak murid yang sangat baik.


"raihan! muhaimin! hambali! patah balik sekarang. saya ssh tak boleh tarik mangga and gate ni!"

"okay miss cutie shorty sweety pie" tk faham aku pehal pgl aku tu mcm.


tak tersusun dengan patah perkataan sayang aku pada mereka. sayang aku pada mereka sama mcm mereka perlukan ku. =)








Saturday, April 4, 2009 @ 12:51 AM
ya iyalah

This week has been a tough week. sigh.

I think I should seriously stop visiting facebook like i visit the toilet. i'm online too often already. dh giler gaknye aku dengan facebook.

ok bubbye hunneh bunny pearlie diamond. nk tidur awal sbb nk hantar athifah g syria esk. kau jaga diri ye sahabat. jaga buku2 kesayangan aku esp buku karangan ramlee awang murshid. sayang aku dkat buku ramlee awang murshid sama taraf mcm aku sayang kau. tp bezanya buku tu tdk bernyawa kau bernyawa. dhlh. merepek2 lak aku ni. jmpe esok sayang.



Friday, April 3, 2009 @ 1:36 AM
tak mampu mata menatap bingkisan duka

"kenapa dengan awak ni?"

aku menggeleng. tertelan-telan airliur sendiri. sesekali kelopak mataku terpejam rapat. dahi berkerut yang berselirat. tatkala mengangkat kelopak mata, satu keluhan yang sangat berat terhembus secara tidak sengaja. semua itu terhasil akibat kocakan dalaman yang sangat berombak. perasaanku bergegar-gegar seperti dilanda gempa 9.8 pada skala ritcher. gempa bumi yang berupaya memusnahkan bangunan-bangunan konkrit. malah, boleh membunuh sesiapa sahaja. andai hatiku sepetak tanah, sudah pasti terbentuk rekahan-rekahan yang kian melebar.


gambaran sebuah perasan.