when thoughts get mixed up

PROFILE

siti.khadijah.md.bashir

Being Me is the greatest challenge
to keep on moving when everything messed up
to keep on going when my vision turns upside down
to keep calm when my anger explodes
to keep smiling when all I have is sadness
to enjoy the real happiness that came only for a while

but only this way
these lessons had taught Me how to live
these challenges that made me stronger inside out
these stories that gave me strength to my weaknesses for each fate that you wrote for my Life
is nothing better but THE BEST!

“When you leave, remember to look back to see those you’re leaving behind. You never know, but they might be feeling miserable."

YOUR SAY

SO YESTERDAY

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I'LL BE WATCHING YOU

'AlimaKU
AimanKU
AszafiraKU
AtiqaKU
AmiraKU
AsiahKU
FadilaKU
FyraKU
FarahinKU
FazilaKU
HadiKU MusuhKU
HairulKU
HikmaKU
JuwairiyahKU
MarizzaKU
Kak ainKU
Kak hannahKU
Lembah IlmuKU
NabilaKU
NurulhudaKU
NisyaKU
SriKU
UttKU
ZulianaKU

CREDITS

skin by: Ja ne
edits by: nurfa

Mungkin - Anuar Zain

Tuesday, October 27, 2009 @ 3:12 AM

board depan meja belajarKU.

board yg tpampang depan meja belajar.

gmbr yang menjadi pembakar semangat.

nota-nota yang diberikn oleh teman2 yang akan selalu menjadi kenangan terindah.

;)

rindu pula malam2 gini dkat mak abah.

@ 2:09 AM

Mamai

aku palingg tak suke chat nan orang pukul 2 3 pagi dlm keadaan mengantok kerana aku tend to bbl merepek. harap maklum.

"esk djah naik ape balik?"
"bus, syahid naik kapal api eh?"

KAPAL API AKU!! NK CKP KERETAPI TCKP KAPAL API. PLS EH DJAH. JGN MALUKN KETURUNAN HANG TUAH. HANG TUAH DGR NI BANGUN DR KUBUR KANG! k sekian.

@ 12:57 AM

i'm all worn out, dear heart.

I started to realise how i always put high expectations in everything.
Most of the time, It's a good thing but then again, it'll always eat me up silently and make me miserable one way or another.
I guess sometimes, its better not expect anything at all,
that way, i won't get disappointed when things go wrong.

Saturday, October 24, 2009 @ 10:54 PM

bila lapar menguasai akal

LAPAR GLER EH.
FYRA~~!! BAIK KO BALIK CPT BAWA MAKANAN.
SBLM AKU MAKAN NASI BERKUAHKAN DARAH SENDIRI!!
AKU DH HUJUNG2 NYAWA EH.

@ 8:30 PM

mereka pulang semula ke tanah arab.

"kau tk dpt hntr aku nari?"

"tak dpt. aku kirim doa dari jauh ok?"

"ok. jaga diri syg"

"jaga diri juga"

ada hikmah nya aku tk dpt balik sbb periksa.

ada hikmah nya dia pergi hari ini.

sbb aku tak cukup kuat nak saksikn perpisahan bwat kali kedua.

pergilah.

ku iringi dirimu dengan doa dari bumi malaysia.

Friday, October 23, 2009 @ 10:43 PM

enough said

stop asking me when i can let go, when i can forget,
bcos i dont have a definite answer right now,
when the time comes, it will happen!
it's not the matter whether i want or not,
it's a matter whether i can or not,
bfore you people ask me that kind of ques, try putting urself in my shoes
it's not that easy, mind you!
i'm not burdening anyone,
you make it sound so wrong to actually love someone!
i've never asked anything for return, right??
so stop making it sound like im being so dumb, will you?

@ 1:30 AM

grrrr

GIVE ME A BREAK, CAN???
TK BEDEK2 UGH RIMAS.

Thursday, October 22, 2009 @ 9:11 PM

mohan didoakan.

kalau Allah nak bagi sakit,

dalam sekelip mata je eh.

smlm baru ceria, ketawa2.

nari dh lemah longlai.

mohon didoakan ye.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009 @ 5:24 PM

thanks god for blessing me to have them part of my life.

Its never easy to understand

why memories hold our hand

but people let go.

im missing billion people right now.

those really closefriends, those bestfriends, and even the hi-bye friends.

i know im not who planning out meet up session or stuff like that but im trying my best to stay in touch with those people.

be it via MSN or just SMS.

sometimes it scares me to think that one day all of us wont be friend anymore

like we're so caught up with new friends that we tend to forget the old ones

will that happen?

please tell me its not going to happen.

some people have just left like that

but i wont let that happen for those friends i have right this moment, old or new, close or not.

i wont let that happen.

not anymore.

@ 3:53 PM

bila si sombong tidak lagi sombong

"aku mimpi kau tumbuk aku! kau marah2 aku. kau suruh aku keluar um!"

"kau biar betul! padahal akulah orang yang paling sayang kau!"

terimakasih kerana menyayangi.

terimakasih atas sebuah persahatan.

Sunday, October 18, 2009 @ 3:13 PM

my sweetheart, nurdayana.

comel loteh kn kte combine katil

psl kita dua tak boleh berenggang?

ouch!
i love u lh dayana! ;)

@ 12:21 AM

i wonder.

I wanted you to fight for me. I wanted you to say that there is no one else that you could ever be with, and that you’d rather be alone than without me.

but then again,

who am i to ask for all that?

Friday, October 16, 2009 @ 9:02 PM

kerusi muzik

Aku palingg menggigil lutut tangan klw main musical chair. dr zaman alsgff masuk waktnjg game tulh yg aku tk suke. tk uji kepintaran akal langsung! cey aku. dh sll kalah mcm2 lak ckp. aku ni maaf kate lh kaki tk berapa panjang mana jd agak binget main musical chair. mst aku jd org yg ptama tkuar! dulu main nan kawan2 senegara. skrg main nan bdk international. ganas gler. habis hilang adat dan akidah aku.

pusing2 smpi naik mabok.

max dkat belakang tolak aku suwo jalan cpt!

aku dh kalah abe aku tarek kerusi jauh2 smpi
ada org tjatuh. bwahaha! mntk maaf sgt2.

thats it ugh! tk tahan kena ketawa. and aku kena punish
menyanyi dpn sume class.
nasib punishment dia senang!

dh jd gler and serabai dh aku kena punish pny pasal.

rindunye nk main musical chair nan korg sume,

ingt lg tk korg?

Monday, October 12, 2009 @ 1:57 PM

demi mencapai cita dan menggapai redha yang esa, ku relakan perpisahan.

jgn muntah lak mar tgk ni gmbr.

apek! bawa pelan2. saya blm puas bbual nan mar saya!

last pic of the year.

sampai ketemu tahun depan sayangku.

meski jarak memisahkan

tiada noktah kasih.

@ 12:35 PM

what i heard were nothing but untruths.

tell me,

that you are here,

that you are my future,

that im just paranoid,

even if its all just a lie.

Sunday, October 11, 2009 @ 4:05 AM

take my hand and hold it tight, will you?

my heart is burning.
really.
my bestfriend, my boyfriend and my cousin are going to be far away from me.
sooo much for being strong, djah.
i made it throung last time and i'll make sure i'll make it through this time too.

Thursday, October 8, 2009 @ 1:48 AM

ehem ehem!