when thoughts get mixed up

PROFILE

siti.khadijah.md.bashir

Being Me is the greatest challenge
to keep on moving when everything messed up
to keep on going when my vision turns upside down
to keep calm when my anger explodes
to keep smiling when all I have is sadness
to enjoy the real happiness that came only for a while

but only this way
these lessons had taught Me how to live
these challenges that made me stronger inside out
these stories that gave me strength to my weaknesses for each fate that you wrote for my Life
is nothing better but THE BEST!

“When you leave, remember to look back to see those you’re leaving behind. You never know, but they might be feeling miserable."

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'AlimaKU
AimanKU
AszafiraKU
AtiqaKU
AmiraKU
AsiahKU
FadilaKU
FyraKU
FarahinKU
FazilaKU
HadiKU MusuhKU
HairulKU
HikmaKU
JuwairiyahKU
MarizzaKU
Kak ainKU
Kak hannahKU
Lembah IlmuKU
NabilaKU
NurulhudaKU
NisyaKU
SriKU
UttKU
ZulianaKU

CREDITS

skin by: Ja ne
edits by: nurfa

Mungkin - Anuar Zain

Wednesday, December 31, 2008 @ 12:59 AM

Show me that you are worthy as a true friend before the friend-ship sinks for good.

The truth simply hurts.

I read what I wrote and just like her, I was taken back by my harsh words. It sounds wrong. What is politically right is to make a friendship work but right now, I don't have that much strength and feel that it is best to let it slip through my fingers.

I know, slap me in the face. As much as I wish I could break the wall between us, it seems plausible and it is a known fact that it takes 2 hands to clap to make it work. What was said is the plain truth and it simply hurts. I need something solid to hold on to. I wish there is at least an event where you have been there for me or a bond between us to hang on to but I couldn't think of any. I wonder if you ever give a damn but to think of it, I don't think you give our friendship a second thought.

I wish it had been different. Prove to me that I am wrong about you so that I can give this friendship a well-deserved second chance. I want to be proven wrong.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008 @ 11:50 PM

dari mata turun ke hati, atau dari hati turun ke mata?

Aku tidak tahu apakah pesonanya yang memikat hati atau sememangnya akalku tidak berada di tempatnya?

@ 7:04 PM

I've become a little less numb

how did things end up like this.

All this while, I’ve been trying. I’ve been trying hard, putting in my best. All this time, I’ve always been telling myself to keep on trying, to always put in my best effort.
Because I’ve always thought you were worth it.

But do you know how much your words hurt?

I’ve tried so hard to maintain what we have left. I’ve tried my best to protect all that we have. I’ve exhausted myself with all those thoughts and feelings, with all those times telling myself it’s okay and it’s worth all my effort.

I thought you knew me. i thought you knew me too well that you wouldnt say those words. Do you know how sharp your words are?

Monday, December 29, 2008 @ 10:28 PM

gambar - genting & kl

nur dh ready.

kak ijah pun dh ready.

kecik2 nur cute cm anak patung.
dh besar cm anak beruang.

dalam cabel car.

passionate. not.

abah ijah.

bismillah.

lorong sunyi. (ape sae aku!)

gajah comot.

pirate ship.

spinner. 5 kali naik benda ni.

musuh ketat.

ni je c nur berani nak naik. MENYAMPAH.

time orang beratur utk roller coaster de ddk tunggu.

hotel dynasty.

sushi lover.

klcc.

without them, without me.

nama budak ni afifah.

aisyah sayang.

nur makan pon muke nk bkerut.

kakak dan abah.

chak!

done.

=))

@ 12:39 AM

penulisan yang rasmi.

salam alaik.

terima kasih utt dan farahin. dan terima kasih kawan2 kerana menanti kepulangan saya. dan tak lupe juga ucapan tahniah kepada melly kerana dapat kerja.

tkpayahlh minta saya ceritakan pengalaman saya. kerana pengalaman saya sama je mcm pengalaman orang lain. tkd beza. pergi genting naik bus. ribut2 bawak beg. sampai genting bilik sesempit sempit tidak. lubang cacing pon lg luas. terpaksa hidup zuhud dkat genting. dekat sana musuh ketat saya adik saya sndr, nurhuda. kerana bila dekat theme park saya rasa mcm nk hempap kepala dia dengan roller coaster. puas hati saya! semua benda dia takut. semua benda main dh nak nangis. membazir je! nasib naik cabel car dia tak takut.

okay bila dekat kl mcm biasa juga. tkdpape yang menarik. hotel dynasty je paling menarik sbb jiran atas bilik hotel saya AWIE. AWIE YANG PENYANYI ROCK TU! saya senyum simpul2 je sepanjang dekat lobby hotel. bukan senang nk berjiran nan artis katekn. awie pon awie lh asalkan artis.

saya pergi time square dua kali. horey-horey tengok cicakman. saya ketawa dekat wayang sekuat2 tidak seolah2 wayang tu keturunan saya yang punya.

tanpa saya sedar secara tak langsung saya dh ceritakan pengalaman saya. hek. sangat formal post saya akibat dh lama sangat bermastautin di malaysia.

nanti saya upload gambar. selamat menunggu ye!

Thursday, December 25, 2008 @ 10:33 PM

life isn't always about what you expect.

Sometimes in life, you come across people whom you least expect to become those most dear to you.
And the next thing you know, they are playing huge roles in your everyday life.
They make you smile when all you can muster up is a frown.
They make you worry hugely because you care for them.
Their absence you start feeling like a hole inside you, however short the duration that they are away.
Their words can lift you up high.
Their advice is what you don't want to hear but what you need to hear.
They become people who matter to you.

Because you least expect them to be this important, that is why your relationship with them is exceptionally beautiful.

In my life, Khadijah is one such person.
:)

Yours always,
Nurfarahin.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008 @ 1:12 PM

Sebuah kisah klasik.

preu2 08. pardon for the image quality. that time camera djah masih si putih. hah

love

Kawan-kawan,

andainya tahun ini bukan yang terakhir

mungkin sahaja kita akan masih dapat membayangkan

pagar sekolah terbuka luas menantikan kepulangan kita.

Mungkin sahaja kita semua sedang ghairah menghadapi tahun hadapan.

Buku baru, kelas baru, mungkin sahaja, guru baru.

Yang tidak berubah adalah keadaan sekeliling, teman-teman dan seragam sekolah.

Kawan-kawan,

krg tk rasa rugi ke kte semua dh tk rasa kehangatan nk bukak sekolah?

Terpker kte akan duduk sebelah siape.

Siape yg bertuah jadi guru kelas kite.

Apakah azam baru kite untuk tahun depan?

Klw dulu azam saya untuk tahun 2008

adalah untuk jadi pelajar yang konsisten belajar,

tidak tidur di dalam kelas

dan jadi pelajar yg sopan dan pendiam.

Tapi sayang, semua tu saya tidak dapat capai.

Tetapi tahun 2008 saya amat membahagiakan saya.

Terlalu banyak kenangan manis.

Tidak gtu?

Mungkin diriku masih ingin bersama kalian.

Salam syg, nurathifah

*djah masih bercuti*

Monday, December 22, 2008 @ 12:19 AM

salam sayang, genting

Hai semua!
Saya kawan baik kepada Siti Khadijah.
Nama saya Nur 'Athifah.
Esok Siti Khadijah akan ke Genting Highlands buat kali kedua.
Semoga dia berbahagia di sana.
Semoga dia menjadi pemimpin yang berkualiti ye.
Kenapa dia kena jadi pemimpin?
Pasal semua booking adalah atas nama dia
Bak ketua keluarga
Selamat jalan sayangku.
Seawal 5 pagi nanti dia kene bangun.
Bus jalan pukul 7. Dia naik Grassland.
Mana saya tahu ni?
Kerana sayalah yang temankan dia beli tiket
Ok bye.

Salam sayang,
nurathifah mohd noor.

Saturday, December 20, 2008 @ 11:43 PM

rindu ini takkan selama-lamanya bertakhta, hanya sementara.

sengajaku datangkan kenangan dulu
kubelek satu persatu gambar kita
kuukirkan senyuman diselang seli dengan gelak tawa
tanda fikiran aku ligat kembali pada zaman kita

sengajaku ceritakan kisah dulu
pada mereka yang mengenali kewujudan kita dahulu
sengajaku wawarkan pada seluruh isi dunia
yang dahuluku pernah disayanginya

sengajaku tanam kerinduan ini
kerana aku ingin menikmati rasa rindu yang jarang bertandang
jangan dihalang rasa ini
kerana kelak rasa rindu ini akan berlabuh juga.

rindukan anugerah?

tapi jangan lama-lama sangat

takut makan diri. =))

@ 10:41 PM

pasir ris park (lagi dan lagi)

pencinta alam maya.

pencinta laut.

pencinta khadijah.

pencinta khadijah lagi. =p

mereka dicintai khadijah.

menikmati angin laut.

hahahaha. dh kenapa sae aku g laut 3 kali dalam seminggu. takpe. mgu dpn tkd dkat spore. ok lg 2 hari je. =)) korang selamat eh hidup tanpa khadijah.

dont miss me much k!

Thursday, December 18, 2008 @ 9:27 PM

sang penganggur di kalangan para pekerja yang tercinta.

picnic at pasir ris park with atiqa and fathima. =))

sedap mak atiqa (cik salina) masak.
terima kasih cik.

name jafni tk henti disebut bila main dam.
"awk. jafni kata main dam mcm awk hantar tentera perang tao"
"awk. jafni kata kadang2 dlm hidup perlu berkorban. mcm dam ni"

ok. ni tkd jafni kata. ni djah kata.

kuat sae jari fathimah.

Dear fathima dan atiqa, thanks for the quality time, and thanks for existing in my life. Thank you Allah.

can't wait to go genting highland (again) this coming monday . i just want to eat. and eat. and eat. and just keep eating. =) (tk psl2!) life's simply great.

but it won't last, will it?

@ 12:14 AM

I especially like this part of the lyrics - cant break thru.

Don't Think, I Wanna Know You

I'm Tierd, Of Running After You

I Won't Send You Sorry Cards

'Cos I Don't Need To

I'm Giving Up And I'll Never Reminse

I've Found A Way, Of Getting Over This
I've Let In Every Way

'Cos I Don't Need You

I Feel That It's Time

For Me To Draw The Line