when thoughts get mixed up

PROFILE

siti.khadijah.md.bashir

Being Me is the greatest challenge
to keep on moving when everything messed up
to keep on going when my vision turns upside down
to keep calm when my anger explodes
to keep smiling when all I have is sadness
to enjoy the real happiness that came only for a while

but only this way
these lessons had taught Me how to live
these challenges that made me stronger inside out
these stories that gave me strength to my weaknesses for each fate that you wrote for my Life
is nothing better but THE BEST!

“When you leave, remember to look back to see those you’re leaving behind. You never know, but they might be feeling miserable."

YOUR SAY

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I'LL BE WATCHING YOU

'AlimaKU
AimanKU
AszafiraKU
AtiqaKU
AmiraKU
AsiahKU
FadilaKU
FyraKU
FarahinKU
FazilaKU
HadiKU MusuhKU
HairulKU
HikmaKU
JuwairiyahKU
MarizzaKU
Kak ainKU
Kak hannahKU
Lembah IlmuKU
NabilaKU
NurulhudaKU
NisyaKU
SriKU
UttKU
ZulianaKU

CREDITS

skin by: Ja ne
edits by: nurfa

Mungkin - Anuar Zain

Saturday, May 30, 2009 @ 11:43 PM

ya Allah, lindungilah mereka semua.

mule2 korg main psp aku rampas.

pastu korg main sudoku lak!

uji kesabaran btol.

salman and raihan. ok best makan time.

4 kotak utk 8 org mmg tk cukup. sorg makan sekotak.
sebagai seorang guru yg penyabar,
aku hanya makan satu slice pizza je.

group photo please. =))
my sec 4 students.

click. ok done.

"ustazah tk kesian tglkn kite org?"

"kalau saya ada pilihan saya tknk tglkn awak semua"

@ 1:03 AM

athifah - si perosak mimpi.

aku harap kau suke nan cake ni. tk seberapa lah sangat.

wahaha. k k.aku bedek. mengamok mak bapa kau klw bace. drg penat2 beli aku tumpang nama.

sorry cik norsiah dan cik mohd nor.

utk nurathifah,

selamat ulang tahun, sayang.

andai hati khadijah sedang retak,

doa pengubatnya.

andai mata khadijah mengantok,

ketawa athifahlah pengubatnya.

KETAWA KAU BOLE BWAT MIMPI AKU BERSEPAI EH!

Friday, May 29, 2009 @ 2:59 AM

coretan hati kak ijah

kak ijah dgr saini tgh demam. mst demam sbb rindukan kak ijah kan? ouch! u vewy sweet lh u know! aku perasan sndr. pakal saini blm tawu membaca.

cepat2 lah sembuh sayang. dh sembuh boleh kte main bola keranjang sesama . boleh kita webcam sesama sampai mabuk. boleh kite main tembak2 sesama. ingatkah saini pada kenangan itu? saini tembak kak ijah then kak ijah step2 mati pastu saini ketawa terbahak2. tak ingat siap kau! penat tao aku berlakon jadi mati,siap tahan nafas lg!

kak ijah rindu saini lah. kak ijah doakan saini cepat sembuh k jd terubat rindu kak ijah.

@ 2:35 AM

demimu, nyawa sanggupku gadaikan.

kau tak mungkin aku hampiri
kerana istanamu jauh sekali
terapung2 di atas tasik mimpi
dipagari pengawal bernafas api

kiranya aku diberi kuasa sakti
akan ku tunggang kuda
akan ku sambarmu dari naga bernafas api
dan akan kubawa dirimu ke hujung pelangi.

andai saja ku tahu dimana penjaramu, akan ku selamatkan dirimu.

Monday, May 25, 2009 @ 2:48 PM

keep moving on

To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore.

Letting go isn't about winning or losing.

Its not about pride and its not about how you appear, and its not obsessing or dwelling on the past.

Letting go isn't blocking memones or thinking sad thoughts, and it doesn't leave emptiness,

Hurt or sadness.

Its not about giving in or giving up.

To let go is to cherish of memories, to overcome and move on.

It is having an open mind and and confidence and confidence in the future.

Letting go is leaming and expenencing and growing.

To let go is to be thankful for the expenences that made you laugh, made you cry, made you grow.

Its about all that you have, all that you had,and all that you will soon gain.
Letting go is having couroge to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.
Letting go is growing up.

It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.

To let go is to open the door and to clear a path and set yourself free.

-unatribbuted

so how?

can you really come to a decision and not go back on it?

have you made up your mind?

cause i have.

Everyone moves on.

There are times in your life when you recalled some significant moments and you either laughed it off or you dwell a little on it.

but still, you moved on.

yes dear, im moving on.

I had my share of laughing and dwelling.

I'm big girl.

still a girl, but a big girl now.

Saturday, May 23, 2009 @ 8:39 PM

weird conversation

" ustazah! do you have a disease?"

" what sort of ques is that? asal tanye?"

"bcause you are short"

"ohh hopefully not. im just born short"

"are you sure? you tkd bone disease eh?"

"go and sit down. and, being short is cute fyi ok!"

Nobody has ever asked me about my shortness in such a way

-______-

Wednesday, May 20, 2009 @ 12:46 AM

self centred.

sometimes you just cant help yourself from thinking,
why bother?
if they don't , why should you?

why cant i just get it? for once, i want to do myself justice.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009 @ 12:17 AM

I can never thank you enough for being so great, ramiza.

tkley angkattt sae gmbr ni.

hussaini tulis ucapan utk miza.

miza tperanjat baboon tgk saini dpn pintu.

bganding tangan nmpk!

jom nyanyikn lagu utk babygirl.

credits to atikay osman.

hussaini! jangan tgk cyter tu. maksiat!

aku tk ajar dia makan cmni eh!

fuhhh gagah sae miza dokong saini.

so much love!

the child in us.

group photo pls.

Happy 19th to my ramiza.

and as planned, we ambushed to her house yesterday.

with the collage, cake and hussaini.

so much love and joy in the air!

Monday, May 18, 2009 @ 11:21 PM

jenaka kawan nur.

"kak. dengar ah kawan nur pny merepek kak!"
" jgn kau mepek sudah. ape?"
"smlm mlm nur tanye dia, dia dh belajar English blm"
"abeh?"
"abe dia ckp nanti malam dia belajar, nur pon rep bkn ke skrg dh malam? abe kakak tahu dia rep ape?"
"ape?"
" oh tempat kau dh malam eh? tmpt aku masih nmpk matahari"

WAHAAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! guling2 sampai luar rumah aku ketawa.

@ 2:21 AM

in need of HIS guidance

I am starting to get used to the feeling of being disappointed and i decided that i should not be disappointed anymore.

Sunday, May 17, 2009 @ 2:41 AM

i'm here, waiting for you to tell me.

If you tell me that you are not happy there,
I would come and take you away.

@ 1:54 AM

i wish i could save you

The worst way to feel about anyone is disappointment. I’d much rather be angry/frustrated than feel disappointed. Because when you’re angry, you just get hot and bothered about whatever issue on hand. But when you’re disappointed, your heart breaks.

why do i feel dissapointed, when all are already expected?
why do i still think of him, when this has long past?

Thursday, May 14, 2009 @ 11:44 PM

bermulanya semua hanya dgn rasa, ada saja yang tak kena.

Jika engkau pergi,
bulan dan bintang masih tetap dilangit.

Jangan khuatir tentang diri ku
Ku janji takkan merinduimu.

@ 10:27 PM

si pejongkit bibir.

meluaaaat yg amat2.

haha.

kesian fathin.

asal muke aku jongkit bibir je gmbr kau.

sorry fathin.

@ 2:09 AM

pamper me more.

I wish to run,
away from everything.

I wish to run and run,
not turning back.

But though I wish to run and run and run,
I am secretly hoping that you will run after me,
and make me feel like a small girl again,
loved and pampered.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009 @ 12:02 AM

the turkish ice cream

salam alaik.

I am currently craving for this ;

DENGAN SUSAH PAYAH AKU CR GMBR NI!

korg tawu tk mana nk dpt ice cream sedap nie? kte dh mcm dang anum sae ngidam. =((

Tuesday, May 12, 2009 @ 3:43 AM

si penawar luka.

Walaupun tidak sehala,

namun dia pernah menjadi penyembuh di kala luka,

rajukku dipujuk dengan simbahan nasihat Pencipta,

dia sering mendekati walaupun dijauhi,

dan dialah antara yang bertakhta di HATI..

selamat hari jadi sayang ku, nurhakeemah.

@ 12:01 AM

i feel like everything's complete.

dipetik dari atas tingkap hadi, diambil dari bawah kedai hadi.

saat-saat paling bahagia.

ice cream yg telah kotorkan tudung miza.

senyuman ikhlas si gemok.

hussaini tk tahan pancaran matahari.

menyaksikan matahari terbenam. romantis sungguh.
miza nga sibuk bersihkn tudung.

jafni bak bapa penyayang.

hussaini diwanitakan. bwk byk2 mengucap hussaini.

aku kire sipi2 je lh ni dlm gmbr?

jafni and hadi mengajar hussaini cara mengambil wudhu.

sibuk berceloteh jafni.

habis berpeluh satu badan hussaini main kejar2.

If athifah was such a happy girl yesterday, i was happier than her.

because my most beloved cousin and friends were by my side.

what more could i ask for?

If you've noticed, i love to introduce my old friends to my new friends and vice-versa.

same goes to my cousin and friends. its just that im happy to see other experiencing the happiness and love that i feel. I think this is due to me being the eldest sister that i love to share things with my sisters.

sometimes there comes a stage when i am willing to even share my husband. maybe i have not experience a married life yet so that's why i can say that. hek!

as many people have said, 'sharing is caring, caring is loving' =))

Monday, May 11, 2009 @ 10:52 PM

to all mothers in the world, happy mother's day.

Happy mother's day!

to all mothers!!

For all sacrifices you have made.

and all the pain you've gone through.

You really deserve this day.

Ijah sayang mak. <3

Saturday, May 9, 2009 @ 10:15 PM

andai awan bisa melakar, pasti terlukis kisah persahabtan kita.

"semalam ana mimpikan anti, sbb ana rindu sangat"

"anti mimpi baik ke tk?"

"ana pon tk igt mimpi pasal ape bile ana bgn je yg ana igt muke ti je mknenye anti org yg pertama ana igt bila ana bukak mata"

"btw ana pon rindu anti gler smpi ana letak wallpaper gmbr kte dua dkat pc. dh 2 minggu lbh dh ana letak. makin ti nak alek ni makin rinduu!"

rindu rindu rindu rindu mardhiah sangat sangat sangat.

@ 9:26 PM

andai mereka tahu

boleh maut melayankan murid-muridku yang sememangnya banyak kerenah. sesungguhnya, memberi mereka nomborku adalah satu kesilapan yang besar! wahai murid-muridku yang sememangnya tidak akan membaca atau memahami kata-kataku ini, tolonglah, berhenti ber-smsku! apabila aku tidak me-reply, mereka akan menghantar lagi sms,

'ustazah rep lh penat dok tunggu reply!'

tolong jangan bertanya soalan yang tidak berkaitan dengan pelajaran agama sprt,

'zah warganegara singapura?' TAK. SRI LANKA. ASL?
'zah tinggal blk 175 tingkat 12?' SAYA JIRAN SEBELAH RUMAH AWK.
'zah darah jenis ape?' AWK NK BUAT APE TANYE JENIS DARAH SY? NK DERMA DARAH?

Cekik darah punya murid-murid. terlalu banyak masa ya. dan ia juga creepy ya, seperti mereka ada krush (crush) terhadapku. perasan pulak aku.

@ 9:13 PM

if I didn't have such a big ego, i would have cried.

i don't mind you wanting to be the best, seriously.

but do you have to hurt others along the way to the top?

@ 1:17 PM

hey sang merak!

bibirmu ketandusan senyuman

jeling pandangan hanyalah diekor mata

atur langkah penuh keangkuhan

gerak gaya lambang kemegahan

Dirimu tidak ubah bagai merak,

yang indah bulunya tapi tidak mampu terbang ke angkasa.